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| User: | purrrsephone (1212811) The Elysian Library
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| Name: | Teh_Stefferz | |||||
| Website: | Succubus: Modern Mythology | |||||
| Location: | Fayetteville, Georgia, United States | |||||
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| Bio: | All You Never Wanted to Know About Me Me me me. All about me. A million and one things about me, the strange girl lurking over in the corner and not saying a damn thing. Appearance-wise I'd have to call myself a bit of a hodge-podge. I have crazy, unruly, wavy natural red hair that has been dyed every colour under the sun and then some, including candy pink, fire engine red, and dark wine. My eyes are blue-green with a hint of grey and though I have worn contact lenses in the past, I prefer to hide them behind as much black eyemakeup as humanly possible and a handy pair of black plastic frame glasses. I draw on my eyebrows, and I really don't care too much what you think of that, it's just that I'm really obsessive compulsive about my eye area since I consider them my best physical feature. I'm reasonably tall for a chick, measuring out to 5'7", 5'8" or so, but you'll rarely see me any shorter than 5'10" because of my persistent addiction to platform and stiletto heels, particularly in boot form. I'm fat, I'm not going to lie or pretend or use stupid words like "voluptuous" to mask it, but at the very least I've had the fortune of being able to maintain a striking figure, dangerous curves, and a not-too-bad pair of gams. I love body modification. I currently have two tattoos, one of a Claddagh design on my left bicep and the other a slightly anime-style succubus demon girl with some batty friends swirling around her, and I'm in the process of designing a few more pieces. On top of the obligatory one-in-each-ear I have two piercings, one in my right nostril and the other is a vertical labret, meaning that I can put in either studs or hoops and it works all the same. Past piercings have included my belly button and both eyebrows. I dress in all black because I want to, and it's slimming, and everything matches. Not for any reason of necessity tied to whatever subculture you perceive me to be part of. Yes, there are other colours of clothing in my closet and to be fair they do make special appearances now and again. I'm learning to accept the burgundies, magentas, and ceruleans one shopping spree at a time. I've been known to fancy a corset or two...or twenty. I love jewelry but hate wearing it day-to-day, so I usually stick with some bangle bracelets and a bullet-stud cuff on one arm, a studded cuff watch on the other, Zac's engagement ring, and my body jewelry. When I walk, I swagger and stride with the confidence and cockiness of a rockstar but, I assure you, it's a stark contrast to what I'm usually feeling inside. I've been told that my voice is deep, sultry, and soothing, but you can find it just as often in the higher registers while I'm joking, laughing, mocking, or making a fool of myself. If my eyes are what does it physically, I think my sense of humour is my best personality attribute. When it comes to my personality, the key words here are "facets." Manymanymany of then. I have been diagnosed with rapid-cycling Bipolar Disorder, so combining that with a great many different interests and influences and an inherent dual nature, I'm not only moody but rather well-rounded as well. I have my artistic side, for one, since I am very imaginative and creative and have a habit of thinking outside the box in very abstract ways. I'm also very dramatic, emotional, and passionate, which admittedly does leave me very sensitive, but I have an expressive nature and have no troubles sharing my feelings or channeling them into a project if need be. I have a slightly darker side, too. As anyone with life experience and an alternative worldview can tend to be, I'm a bit bitter and sarcastic about people and the world around me. I can own up to my occasional bouts of pessimism, apathy, misanthropy, and criticism. I have several morbid fascinations, too, which a lot of people don't seem to understand, and it tends to alienate me from my peers. I'm well known in my circles of friends as being brutally honest (keyword being "brutal"), and a lot of people seem to say that this is a quality that they look for in a friend but take it for granted or feel slighted by it when they find someone who has it. I'm also known as a pottymouth, because I don't think something as trivial as words should matter, and for the most part nocturnal, because I thrive moreso when the moon is up than the sun. Alternately, I have a much lighter side. I thrive on being able to make people laugh, which I've got down to practically a science, and it doesn't matter how far I have to go to do it or if I embarass myself in the process. Truthfully, I'm a huge goofball and while I may talk big, I don't make it a habit to take myself seriously at all. I love joking and seeing people smile. Sometimes I can be completely random and entirely unpredictable and if I get into moods like that and I'm in public and with friends, there's really no telling what will be done or said because I'm a big of an exhibitionist. Even if it's not for the sake of someone's chuckles, I am a FLAMING extrovert, no doubt about it, and I thrive on attention and social interaction. Despite being told not to all my life, I admit that I really do take stock in what other people think of me, but at the end of the day, my vision of myself is a lot more important than anyone else's. I'm proud of myself for a lot of reasons, carry myself with dignity and self-respect, but that doesn't stop me from getting carried away and becoming prone to episodes of total narcissism. But I'm not shallow; on the contrary, I think I can have extreme depth sometimes. I'm intelligent and introspective and I love a good intellectual conversation or debate. There's not more in this world that I love more than learning from or passing on knowledge to other people. I also enjoy the challenge of taking something I know only a tiny bit about and teaching myself everything I want or need to know about it. I also have a spiritual side that sustains me in this way, but I don't think I have religious beliefs like any other person, at least any person I've met or heard of so far. My thirst for knowledge has brought me to many conclusions and theories on why we're here, what is here with us, what our purpose is, and where we're going. These beliefs, the same as any other beliefs I hold, are unique to me based on what I've experiences and come to understand as MY truth so far in life. Sum all of those things up, and you have me, in a nutshell. A very hedonistic nutshell, at that, because I feel as though my tendency to do and be and try everything is my way of living life to its absolute fullest. As with my multifacted personality, I've been known to wear many hats and play many very different roles throughout my life. Rarely am I ever the same Stef to two different people. I'm a daughter to my parents (not so much anymore, as I came to the conclusion that since I didn't ask to be born, I don't have to waste my time pouring respect and admiration to people who have spent nearly a quarter of a century treating me like garbage), a fiance to Zac, and a sister-by-way-of-life you could say to a small handful of friends who have been with me through important or rocky parts of my life. I'm opinionated, less because of my being stubborn (though that is a factor; I am an Aries, afterall) and moreso because I put a lot of soulsearching and consideration into every choice I make and opinion I cultivate on an important matter. Politically, I'm a registered Libertarian because I feel that, over the years, our country has lost sight of the freedoms it was founded upon and has let the wrong things cloud our judgment when making decisions. It should go without saying that I'm fiercely liberal, and just a few of the causes I personally stand for are feminist equality, women's rights, gay rights, hate crimes legislation, animal rights (to a degree, I'm not one of those psycho PETA crazies or anything, I just happen to believe that the lives and wellbeing of all living things are valuable), legalizing drugs, upholding the First Amendment, and I'm also pro-choice. None of these choices were made lightly; a lot of my political opinions stem from the fact that I am a woman (obviously), I was a victim of rape, I am a practicing Pagan, my sexual preference is for men AND women (I'm talking a legitimate, equal-opportunity dating/screwing bisexual, not "I frenched my friend for free drinks"), and I've experienced or witnessed a fair share of censorship, degredation, and racism over the years. I've spent a lot of my time volunteering for various organizations, charities, and causes, including the SPCA, Habitat for Humanity, RAINN, the AUP, the Libertarian party, GLADD, and the ACLU. I'm also a pescetarian, which is a type of vegetarian that eats animal biproducts like oils, eggs, milk, and the like, and also eats fish, but stays away from red meat and poultry. This isn't a choice I made for any "Save the cows!" political reasons or anything like that, but rather, because red meat and poultry have never sat well in my stomach since my family has an odd string of protein allergies. My decision to stop eating red meat was for my own health and comfort. Truth be told, I miss bacon like you wouldn't believe, but I love wearing leather, and that's all I have to say about that. I am antidiscrimination and protolerance to the very end, and the one thing in this world I hate more than anything is blind ignorance. If you still think I'm just a pretty face, or some flake without any substance, think again. I was first IQ tested at age 8 with a score of 153, and when I was last tested at age 16, astounded everyone with a score of 197, in the top 98th percentile of the population, and my test scores were submitted to MENSA to be certified. Regardless of what you perceive me to be, I am, in fact, a certified genius. I also managed to score a 1450 on my SAT's hungover and on 2 hours of sleep. And as I alluded to earlier, I consider myself the consummate Renaissance woman. I dabble in almost any artform you can imagine. I've studied every form of dance imaginable from interpretive to hip-hop to Irish step to ballroom to swing to salsa to tap since I was 7. Dance led to acting, which I've done my fair share of, appearing in 4 independent films, and more than 15 community theatre products of musicals like Grease!, Jesus Christ Superstar, and Guys and Dolls. It also got me into modelling, which I've done a lot of freelancing in since I was about 16 or 17. I've done a lot of very different work, including posing as an artist's model for someone's graduate school project, working as a live model for a night club's themed parties, and even doing hair modelling for a salon. My forte, though, is in Gothic/fetish/fantasy/horror/alt kind of settings just because I'm willing to stretch my limits and I tend to have a very expressive and exotic look. I've done a few projects on the other side of the lens, too, and tend to stick with the same kinds of themes. While I've never actually done any runway modelling, I do work on my fair share of fashion design, hoping to someday open a boutique or have my own clothing line. Most of my other visual art is done in the form of mini comics or comic book style artwork, although I no longer work on my own comic book/graphic novel, "The Token Female Angst Title," which was put to rest in 2005. I design tattoos--not stock for parlours, but custom for individuals...I like seeing and getting original tattoos that no one else has, and I like dedicating my talents to allowing other people to do that, too. I'm a writer and I like to think I'm a damn good one at that. I've been writing and collecting my free verse poetry and short erotic horror fiction stories, and various reflective prose pieces that fit with the themes of both, since I was about 14 and I hope to someday compile them into at least a book of each of them. I'm already sitting on more than enough poetry for a collection, but a few more stories under my belt and I should have enough to pursue this lifelong dream of mine to get published. I love music, pretty much all music, and over the years I've proved my talent for it onstage, in choir, fronting a band, playing oboe at a young age and drums and percussion a little after that, and by writing music and lyrics both by myself and with a songwriting partner. Little known fact: I'm also a trained opera singer, although I'm hardly close to being a prima diva anytime soon, and fat chance that you'll catch me showing off this particular skill. I love having excuses to make people mix CDs as presents, or to share my musical favourites, or for any reason, really. Off the CDs, my iPod is practically surgically attached to my hip and it's always being updated with new music. I love when people recommend bands and songs to me...keep that in mind if you feel like sending me a comment or bMail. I have a habit of latching onto really good local and independent bands in whatever area I live in and following them around, helping them get gigs, promoting shows and appearances, helping sell tickets and merchandise, hooking them up with fans, lodging, food, drinks, directions, and all that fun stuff. I'm a band's best friend, for sure, just don't call me a groupie. Out of the real world and onto the computer, I dabble in image manipulation and making web layouts and Photoshop collages and wallpapers and other such graphics. It's quick and easy and personalized, so these are common gifts you can expect from me. I love film. I'm absolutely nuts for horror movies, regardless of subgenre. I can stomach all the blood, guts, shock, and gore you can throw at me and I love the emotional rollercoaster ride of a good suspensefull thriller. I have a soft spot for intense dramas that put a different spin on things, share a new point of view, or have a really abstract and engaging storyline. Plus I've definitely got a weakspot for really good art direction, cinematography, art direction, and camera work. I have a ton of other interests and do a whole bunch of other little hobby type things, but it would just be exhausting to list because I tend to keep myself busy. Even when I'm being lazy, I'm a gamer, and while most people would just be a lump sitting on a couch vegging out to some TV I'm an elf conquering demons in far off lands with a sword 3 times my height. If this makes me a nerd, so be it, but I'll still be rolling my dice and LARPing around long after you've lost your imagination. That, and I can play a mean game of DDR, so bring it! Want to know anything else about me? You'd be surprised how much there is to know. I'm an endless fountain of trivia knowledge. I read tarot; I learned on the Dragon tarot and now read with the Renaissance tarot, and I'd like to get a nice collection of decks going. I'm a tea junkie and I drink my tea the English way, cream and sugar thank you. I'm a sucker for a good vintage store, mostly because I love kitschy little retro things and I'm perpetually stuck in the 80's. I have tons of guilty pleasures and most of them are of the musical variety, but I'm a smoker, too, despite my trying to quit several times. I smoke menthols, cloves, or self-rolled flavour blends--and the occasional mary-joo-wanna. I like playing DJ or bartender at parties and I've come up with a lot of really tasty drinks. I'm interested in BDSM, though no longer from a 24/7 relationship standpoint (I was a submissive, it might surprise you to know, when I did involve myself in it), but from a psychological standpoint. I've had all kinds of crazy jobs over the years from a nutritionist to a shoeshine girl, to a technical support agent, recently enjoying a job at an adult store as a smut peddler but currently looking for a new job in my new locale. I skipped college so far to travel and experience a little bit of life outside of the classroom, but I'm hoping to go now that I've explored what I want to do with my life. I eventually want to be an institutional art therapist, start my own experimental psychology counseling practice, or work in a criminology lab setting as a forensic scientist or psychologist or a criminal profiler. Depending on the job I get, the money I make, and how things go, I've also been considering trying to get into a prestigious culinary school in Atlanta...but we'll see. I'm a screamer, just ask my neighbours. I can probably leg press more than you can, and although a fair amount of my weight and bulk is just that, I have a ton of muscle and a lot of people underestimate my strength. I have strange tastes when it comes to food, like the fact that I'm addicted to sushi and all kinds of crazy foreign cuisine. I'm an excellent cook and can make practically anything but I stick to stuff like Thai and Italian and I like making up new recipes. I'm a practicing Sanguinarian. If you don't know what that is, it might bother you to find out. I've lived and traveled all over the place. I grew up outside Philadelphia in PA, moved to Toronto, ON, moved to Indianapolis, IN, moved back to my hometown in PA, and then moved to Modesto, CA with an ex, back around again to Bethlehem again to start anew. That didn't work out, so that journey found me outside Atlanta, GA, and though I had to take a couple month pitstop in Indianapolis again due to complications with that move, I'm back in the Dirty South and enjoying every minute of it. My favourite places in the world (so far) are Hell on Grand Cayman Island, BWI, New Hope, PA, and I will always regard Toronto as my favourite place ever. Because of my ethnic makeup (Irish, German, Syrian, Romanian, Norwegian, and Scottish are just the major ones I know of), I'm basically the head of the World Drinking Team, and unless you want to be sent home on a stretcher, don't ever challenge me to a drinking contest because you'll die before I even feel tipsy. While I've led a polyamourous lifestyle in the past, I'm a fond believer in honesty and loyalty, and adhering to whatever commitments and guidelines both partners set up for the relationship. If you ever want to strike up an immediate conversation with me, just start talking about personality theory, comparative theology, world mythology, or 1980's/1990's synthpop bands. Anything else you could possibly want to know? Ask. Feel free. Just don't be a cunt about it. Outside of that, you'll learn all you could possibly want to know by talking to me or observing me in action while I'm talking to someone else. REVIEWS: "Coy doesn't suit you...the bitten nail, the subtle grin. You're thinly-wrapped sex. Wet velvet and ground teeth." --Me, Peter's words "A budding Anais, if not Anais herself. But no, you're you, a modern young lady grappling with the mother/whore sexuality in this twenty-first century...You are the next generation of feminist--you are the paradox of beauty and rage." --Me, in Jamie's words "Stef is the kinda girl to give a handjob with a fist full of thumbtacks." --Me, in Jeff's words VISUALS:    God only knows why you would need more information than that. And if, by some chance, you do...fuck, that's what I have a LiveJournal for, then isn't it? Here, have some obligatory colourbars!  Psychology is love...or at least, that's what you think, because of your relationship with your mother!  DDR is crazy, insane, groove-thang-shaking love.  Hitsugaya is boy genius love.  Matsumoto is ample love.  Autumn is beautiful red and gold love.  Horror is thrilling and chilling love.  Being a wily, sarcastic bastard like Mr. Pink is love.  The 80's are flashy retro love.  arealqueen  ![[info]](http://p-stat.livejournal.com/img/userinfo.gif){kind=small} bubbly cherrystonelane xz0mbiezx Aquarians like Zac are love.  Ariens like me are love.  | |||||
| Memories:: | 167 entries | |||||
| Pictures: | over 400 public | |||||
| Interests: | 150: 1980s, accents, androgyny, anime, antiques, anxiety disorders, architecture, art therapy, astrology, autographs, biting, blogging, blood, body art, bohemia, boots, bubble baths, burlesque, caffeine, candles, cartoons, cemeteries, chat, chocolate, cleavage, cliques, coffee, comics, concerts, conventions, corsetry, counseling, criminolgy, darkness, death, demonology, depressive disorders, desire, dissociative disorders, divination, equality, erotica, eyeliner, eyes, faeries, fanlistings, fire, forensics, full moons, gay rights, goddesses, gothic, hate, hentai, hiking, honesty, horror, horrotica, hugging, imperfection, incense, independent films, interior design, internet, intuition, karaoke, kitsch, leather, lingerie, linguistics, literature, lust, macabre, massage, masturbation, meditation, message boards, mix tapes, mood disorders, mythology, notebooks, novels, nudity, obsession, occult, omens, pain, pale skin, palmistry, paranormal, paraphilia, persephone, personality disorders, philosophy, pinup art, platform shoes, poetry, politics, practical jokes, psychology, psychopharmacology, psycotherapy, pvc, rebellion, records, reincarnation, renaissance, retro, revolution, ripperology, rock stars, rpgs, rubber, runes, s&m, sad music, scrapbooking, screenwriting, seduction, sex, sex toys, shaving, slang, sociology, songwriting, souls, soundtracks, spells, spelunking, spirits, storms, subcultures, sugar, sunsets, synthpop, tarot, theatre, therapy, thrift stores, tolerance, traveling, true crime, velvet, villains, vintage, vinyl, waterbeds, waterfalls, webdesign, women's rights | |||||
| Schools: | Saucon Valley High School - Hellertown, PA (1999 - 2003) | |||||
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